Summer 2020 Playlist

Hey everyone! Today I am sharing my summer 2020 playlist with you all! I am such a big music lover, and I don’t believe that I can get through a day without listening to my favorite artists (there are too many to name). Sadly, my summer is coming to an end very soon, and I am heading into my last year of college! It’s so strange how the beginning of this year felt like an eternity, but as soon as May/June came around, the days have been flying by! We are living through a pretty chaotic year, but I hope that however you’ve spent the past few months, you used some time to take care of yourself. One thing that can always put me in a good mood is my favorite music! Listed below are some songs that I have been playing on repeat all summer long. Once again, my music taste is all over the place; there is so much that I enjoy listening to! Leave me a comment below telling me a few of your current favorite songs!

  • X – Jonas Brothers, KAROL G
  • Five More Minutes – Jonas Brothers
  • Daisies – Katy Perry
  • End This (L.O.V.E.) – Hailee Steinfeld
  • Be Kind – Marshmello, Halsey
  • Bitter – FLETCHER, Kito
  • Dancing With Your Ghost – Sasha Sloan
  • Phases – PRETTYMUCH
  • Bad Girlfriend – Anne-Marie
  • Looking at Me – Sabrina Carpenter
  • Myself – Bazzi
  • Nice To Meet Ya – Niall Horan
  • All This Love – Robin Schulz, HARLOE
  • Crazy AF – In Real Life
  • Ritual – Tiesto, Jonas Blue, Rita Ora
  • Valentino – Years & Years, MNEK
  • Nobody – DJ Neptune, Mr Eazi, Joeboy
  • Cardigan, Heaven or Hell, Euphoria, Wasted – Don Toliver
  • Party Girl – StaySolidRocky
  • Honeymoon Fades – Sabrina Carpenter
  • Don’t Worry Bout Me – Zara Larsson
  • Secrets – Regard, RAYE
  • Superstar – Marina
  • New Light – John Mayer
  • Souvenir – Selena Gomez
  • Take Yourself Home – Troye Sivan
  • Know Your Worth – Khalid, Disclosure
  • Ready – Alessia Cara
  • More Hearts Than Mine – Ingrid Andress
  • listen before i go – Billie Eilish
  • Only Want You – Rita Ora
  • We Got Love – Joel Corry Remix – Sigala, Ella Henderson, Joel Corry
  • Sour Candy – Lady Gaga, BLACKPINK
  • Physical – Dua Lipa
  • I’m Alright – Shania Twain
  • You Broke Me First – Tate McRae
  • I Still Do – Why Don’t We
  • Heartless – Diplo, Julia Michaels, Morgan Wallen
  • Up All Night – Khalid
  • Too Many Hearts to Break – Kelsy Karter
  • Get You – Daniel Caesar, Kali Uchis
  • Much Too Much – Lennon Stella
  • Here We Go Again – Sigma, Louisa
  • Shadow – Jimmy Levy
  • BELIEVE IT – PARTYNEXTDOOR, Rihanna
  • Young & Alive – Bazzi
  • All I Think About Is You – Ansel Elgort
  • L.O.V.(e). – Ella Eyre
  • Going Out Of My Way – M.O, Mr Eazi
  • WMT – Kaash Paige
  • Couple of Kids – Maggie Lindemann
  • Love Again – New Hope Club
  • Lonely – Noah Cyrus
  • Falling – Harry Styles
  • Long Run – Deacon, Nina Nesbitt

13 Reasons Why Season 4 Recap + Review

The final season of Netflix’s 13 Reasons Why came out on June 5th, and I just recently finished the series! I didn’t binge it like I am sure most people did, but I am now ready to talk season 4! As usual, if you have not watched season 4 of 13 Reasons Why, I recommend watching before reading this post. Spoiler warning!

At the end of season 3, I had made a few small predictions. I feel that many people probably had the same assumptions as me because they were somewhat cliffhangers. First, the bag of guns that was found in the river. I knew this would be an issue that would arise in season 4 and I was right. Tyler had said that they may be able to track the person who bought the guns and this worried Clay and Tony. Then, I mentioned that since Alex’s dad knew that his own son murdered Bryce, maybe he would get involved in some way. It seemed like Tyler and Alex’s dad were somehow working together. Something didn’t seem right, so I thought that maybe Tyler confessed everything to the police. And lastly, of course, Winston. I just knew he was going to cause trouble in season 4.

Early on this season, Winston made his first appearance at Liberty High. He transferred from Hillcrest for the spring semester of his senior year. It was clear from the beginning that Winston was trying to get close to Clay’s friend group; Tyler, Alex, and then Zach. It seemed obvious that he was only trying to get close to find out what they really knew about Monty’s death.  Winston and Alex seemed to have a romantic relationship blossoming but Alex quickly shut it down after finding out that Winston had an alibi against them. I was not exactly surprised to see that Alex was struggling a bit with his sexuality, but he was lucky to have supportive friends and family around him.

This season, Clay’s mental health was spiraling. Keeping such a big secret was really haunting him (literally). Monty and Bryce would appear throughout the season to talk to Clay. While we, as fans of the show, have not known Clay to be a very happy and optimistic guy, he is a lot angrier and a lot more frustrated this season. We can see that Clay began going to therapy and I have to be honest, any time I watch a TV show/movie with therapy scenes, I zone out a bit. These scenes are rarely entertaining to me personally. However, I was glad to see that Clay was getting help, although it didn’t really seem to be working at first.

I was surprised to find that someone had died this season. There were a few scenes that showed a funeral 6 months later, and then it would flash back to present time. I had no idea who it could be, but after watching a few episodes, my mom guessed that it may be Clay. I hoped that this wasn’t true, but episode after episode, it seemed like a real possibility. Especially since he was struggling with his mental health so much. There were times when we even questioned if some of the scenes actually happened or if he was remembering something that didn’t really happen.

We were introduced to Estella, Monty’s sister, this season. I made the assumption that because she joined HO, she may have been assaulted in some way. I also thought this because of the family that she’s from. Monty’s father was abusive, and of course, Monty was too. I had to wonder if anything happened to Estella and I questioned her relationship with her brother and how close they may have been. I guess I ended up being wrong because there really wasn’t much character development for her, though she and Tyler did get close this season.

During the camping trip, someone was messing with the scavenger hunt that they did. I thought it was the football team, but then I wasn’t so sure. I knew that they were upset because they lost their friend and teammate, but how far would they really go? Then I thought maybe it was Ani, but what would her intention be to do that? It confused me because in the next episode, it was as if all was forgotten. (This seemed to be a common theme. Each episode appeared to start from scratch.)

This season was kind of strange in my opinion. I felt that it was, in some ways, unnecessary and the creators seemed to include one TV high school cliché after another (a camping trip, a house party, prom, and a school “shooting”). I found myself wondering if certain scenes were all in Clay’s head or if they were real. For example, in the episode where Clay is driving Zach’s car after the party, they get in an accident. In the next episode, it seemed like the accident was forgotten about until we find out that Zach got hurt and Clay fled the scene.

I felt that the whole “school shooting” was a bit uncalled for. I don’t understand the intention behind the school. Why on earth would they do a drill and have actual gunshots go off? I don’t really see the point other than to scare everyone. I felt bad for Tyler in this episode because as soon as they heard “code red” Tony automatically assumed it was Tyler. While he was wondering where Tyler went, Tyler was sitting in the bathroom stall talking to Estella. The assault that Tyler went through is something he will never forget, but I am really glad that he is getting better. After worrying and worrying, Tony decided to show the Dean of Discipline Tyler’s photos of guns.

While I didn’t think that Tyler would do anything bad, I was curious as to why he seemed to be hiding something from everyone. It turned out that he was working with the cops. After the bag of guns was traced back to Tyler, the cops wanted him to help them catch the guy selling said guns. After being followed by Tony and Clay, Tyler was understandably frustrated as to why they didn’t trust him. I was upset for Tyler because at the end of season 3, it seemed that he got really close to Clay, Alex, Tony, and even Jessica.

This season, everyone really seemed to distance themselves from each other. I guess it was because they didn’t want anyone to find out what they were all hiding. Parents, teachers, and even the police officers felt that students were on edge and being secretive. This led to what a lot of students felt was an invasion of privacy. Cameras were put into the school and some parents were tracking their children’s cell phones. The students fought back by walking out of school and protesting to get their privacy back.

Since it was the end of their senior year, of course, college was an important topic to discuss. Pretty much everyone bombed their college interviews (or at least it appeared that way). One after the other, they just seemed to be giving up on their futures. I understand why Justin was struggling especially. He had just gotten news that his mother died (most likely from a drug overdose), so he was in a bad headspace. In the next episode we found out that Justin got accepted to a college, though this still didn’t help him with his sobriety.

As I watched each episode, I found that I had quite a few questions: who spray painted “Monty was framed” at the school? Who was messing with everyone on the camping trip? Who set the principals car on fire? All of these questions were answered in episode 7. It was Clay. I know this may have seemed obvious to some people but I wasn’t really expecting that! Apparently he didn’t remember doing any of it; proving how bad his mental health really was. Somehow in episode 9, Clay’s mental health problems seemed to disappear. He seemed to be doing much better all of a sudden. I don’t believe this was very realistic because in reality, it would take a while for him to be even close to ok.

The last episode was absolutely heartbreaking. While dancing at prom, Justin collapsed on the floor. To me, this was unexpected, but at this point I was pretty sure it was Justin who was going to die. We soon find out that Justin was diagnosed with HIV-1 and it quickly turned into AIDS. Justin got sick because of his past using drugs, sharing needles, and being involved in (unprotected) sex work. While he could have prevented his own death, he didn’t see the signs, and he didn’t get tested. Seeing him in the hospital broke my heart, and when Jessica and Clay spoke to him before his death, I just couldn’t stop from crying. I felt bad for Clay the most. He grew so close to Justin, and they truly became brothers rather than just friends. When they told each other “I love you” I just about lost it.

After Justin’s funeral, Winston spoke to Alex. He wanted to know why he killed Bryce. Alex explained everything, and Winston decided to let it go. I really did feel bad for Winston because I believe he really did love Alex, at least a little bit. Not only that, but he lost Monty too. I was happy to see Alex and Charlie happy together though. (I thought it was sweet that they were both prom kings and that others were so supportive of their relationship.) Also, Ryan and Courtney made an appearance in the final episode. Ryan and Winston seemed to hit it off immediately, so I hope that means that Winston got a happy ending too.

I was wondering what would happen with Bryce’s case. Sheriff Diaz really seemed to be working against Clay and his friends, and I thought that he would want them to come clean. Somehow, Sheriff Diaz knew that it was Alex who killed Bryce. In the scene when he was speaking to Officer Standall (Alex’s dad), it was clear that they both knew the truth, and they ultimately decided to permanently close the case. I had a feeling they would get away with it all, and this turned out to be what happened.

In the end, Hannah’s tapes were on Clay’s doorstep once again. I knew that Hannah had to be a part of this last episode somehow, and while I wish Katherine Langford came back for this final episode, they did show her ghost (a scene from a past season). Everyone came together to burry Hannah’s tapes in the spot where Clay first heard them. Everyone was going off to college and they were going to have a fresh start, which is what I think they all needed.

As for their futures, I really hope that Clay can help young people the way that his own therapist helped him. While he is most likely going to need to continue going to therapy sessions for a while, I hope that he can work on his mental health and strive for a better future. For Jessica, I hope that she will continue to speak up for and help those who have been sexually abused. This issue became very important to her, and it was obvious that she had leadership qualities.

I think bittersweet is the best word to describe an ending to any series. While I did feel that this season was not the best, I was sad to see the end of the series as a whole. I think the main point of this season was really to end the school year and say goodbye. Everyone pretty much got a happy ending, though some main characters lost their lives along the way.

I hope that you enjoyed reading this recap/review! I would love to know your thoughts on this season (and the show in general), so leave me a comment below and tell me what you thought!

My Thoughts on Hulu’s “The Act”

If you have not watched the show “The Act” on Hulu, I recommend watching it before reading this post! This show is based on a true story. Even if you know this story, I still recommend watching the show! (Spoiler warning.)

Like many people, I have a lot more free time right now. My family and I have been catching up on different TV shows lately, and we recently decided to watch “The Act” on Hulu. “The Act” came to Hulu in March of 2019. I remember thinking to myself that I really wanted to watch the show, but I never got around to it until now.

This show is based on a true story of a girl named Gypsy Rose Blanchard. Her mother had Munchhausen Syndrome by Proxy, which is basically the need to care for somebody who does not need it. Gypsy’s mother made her sit in a wheel chair though she could walk. She shaved Gypsy’s head and told others that her daughter had Leukemia. She even had a feeding tube inserted because her mother would tell doctors that Gypsy could not chew her food. These are just a few of the ways that her overprotective mother controlled and manipulated Gypsy and those around them.

When I first heard about this story, I was completely shocked and disturbed. I felt a mix of emotions. I felt bad for Gypsy, but at the same time, I was frustrated with her choices. I was angry that a mother could do something like this, and to her own child no less. After watching this show and watching a ton of interviews as well as the documentary, I wanted to talk about this crazy story.

While watching this show, I questioned how much of it was true. I knew that since it is based on a true story, a lot of it had to be accurate, but I also understand that some things are dramatized for television. What I have found is that most of what I saw in the show was very accurate.

I first want to talk about the actor’s portrayal of these real life people. Patricia Arquette played Dee Dee Blanchard, Gypsy’s mother. Arquette was phenomenal, to say the least. I think that she was the perfect person to play this role. She made this character extremely believable, and I got chills watching her. She even won an Emmy for outstanding supporting actress in a limited series, so I know I’m not the only one who admired her performance!

Then we have Joey King, who played Gypsy. Again, I think she was the perfect choice for this role, and she did an amazing job. I grew up watching Joey King. She is my age in real life, and I remember first seeing her in The Suite Life of Zack and Cody, and Ramona and Beezus. While I am not too familiar with other roles she has played, I think that this one is probably one of the most challenging ones she has ever played; partly because she is portraying a real life person who is still alive today. She truly stepped into this character by shaving her head, wearing false teeth, and perfectly imitating Gypsy’s voice. King had many vulnerable scenes in this show, and I admire the way she handled them with grace and maturity. While I am unsure of who Joey was up against for the Emmy, I still think Joey should have won some award because she was incredible as Gypsy.

And then we have Nick, played by Calum Worthy. This character really creeped me out. It was very clear early on that he had mental health disorders, and since I had watched interviews and the documentary, I knew the way that each of these characters spoke. Worthy was spot on. He sounded just like Nick, and I felt that he got his mannerisms right as well. While I was not familiar with this actor before watching this show, I think he also did an amazing job, and I think that each of the actors for this show did their research.

I couldn’t believe the lengths that Dee Dee would go to manipulate and lie to her friends, family, and neighbors. She even tricked celebrities into thinking that Gypsy had all of these medical issues when in reality, she was perfectly healthy. It was really terrifying because Dee Dee had her own mental health issues, and it led to a very controlling and restrictive environment for Gypsy to grow up in. She would tell Gypsy not to speak at doctor’s appointments, and she turned Gypsy into a great liar and manipulator. It was truly an abusive home. Gypsy’s father was not exactly a part of the picture. At least from what I understand, he was really not around much, so he was fooled as well.

Because Dee Dee was able to fool everyone, she and Gypsy were given money and donations, free trips, and a house was built for them by Habitat for Humanity. I believe that Dee Dee not only loved the attention and sympathy, but she loved the fact that they were getting all of these nice things handed to them. One of the things that this show and this story has reminded me is the way that family can really shape who you are as a person, whether that is good or bad.

I found myself questioning the doctors so many times while learning about this story. I first thought to myself: how on earth did no one see that Gypsy was healthy? I then realized that even if the doctors would tell Dee Dee that Gypsy was completely fine, she would still tell Gypsy that she wasn’t.  I truly don’t know how she got away with this for so long, but it blows my mind that doctors couldn’t really do anything about it. A doctor in the documentary had said that he can report cases when he believes a child is being neglected, however Gypsy wasn’t exactly being neglected; she was being over treated. Essentially, all he could do was write down the fact that he believed Dee Dee had Munchhausen by Proxy. The way I see it, over treating someone is just as bad as neglecting them.

Since Dee Dee wanted Gypsy (and the world) to believe she was younger than she actually was, Gypsy really did have the interests of a little girl. Even into adulthood, Gypsy had a love for Disney princesses and fairy tale endings.

What seemed to be the breaking point for Dee Dee was when Gypsy got older. Gypsy began questioning a lot of things that I feel many people at her age would wonder about. Her neighbor in the show, Lacey (played by Annasophia Robb), was speaking to her about a Christian dating site. She told Gypsy about a guy she met on the site, and Gypsy was certainly intrigued. Their conversation was very quickly interrupted by Dee Dee, however Gypsy had already come up with a plan.

On this dating site, she met a guy named Nicholas Godejohn. They spoke for a few years before ever meeting in person. At night while Gypsy’s mother was asleep, she would walk around, eat sugary foods (that she was apparently “allergic” to), and she would Skype Nick.

The more Gypsy pushed for independence, the more controlling Dee Dee would get. She did not want Gypsy to grow up and start disobeying her. Plus, the older Gypsy got, the more likely she was to ruin what her mother had created.

Leading up to the murder scene in the last episode, I truly was on the edge of my seat. I was actually scared to watch the scene. When Nick texted Gypsy that he was at her house, she seemed a bit hesitant to let him in. She handed him the knife, and as he walked to Dee Dee’s room, Gypsy locked herself in the bathroom. I was completely freaked out at this point. Soon, Nick murders Dee Dee, and watching Gypsy cover her ears as she tries to block out her mother’s screaming, was chilling.

At first, I wondered how on earth they believed they could get away with doing something like this. Then I was reminded that they were both very childlike. When Gypsy posted on her and her mother’s shared Facebook page that Dee Dee was dead, Nick reminded her to turn off the location, though he was a little too late. This is ultimately how they were caught.

Since I knew how this story ended in real life, I knew what to expect while watching the show. Gypsy got 10 years in prison, while Nick got life. I am sure that the opinions differ widely, but for me personally, I think that 10 years is somewhat fair for Gypsy, however life for Nick seems a bit extreme to me. I do think that he should’ve spent more time in prison than Gypsy because he is the one who actually murdered Dee Dee, but it was honestly heartbreaking watching his interrogation. Nick’s behavior was very childlike and I think he truly did not understand the severity of what he had done. I felt like the fact that he had mental health disorders was not necessarily taken into account (though I am not exactly sure). As for Gypsy, it is hard to say what she really deserved because although she is the one that planned out the murder and in some ways, manipulated Nick into doing it, she went through so many years of abuse. I honestly don’t have a solid conclusion for this because there is so much that needs to be taken into account. It’s all very complex.

I do feel, however, that Gypsy and Nick need therapy and mental health counseling.  What she went through will affect her for life. If she wants to live a more productive and healthy life, mental health counseling or therapy could be very helpful for her. As for Nick, he may not be getting the help he needs in prison, which is sad. I think that he really should be in a hospital setting so he can get the help he needs while still taking responsibility for what he did. The same could be said for Dee Dee. She needed help, and if someone would have been more proactive in looking into this situation further, things could have ended differently for all of them.

It was very clear that Dee Dee had mental health issues. If you are unfamiliar with Munchhausen by Proxy, like I was at first, you may not understand what could cause a person to do such horrible things to her own daughter. Since her mother had this mental illness, one would think that it would drive her own child to go crazy. While I do think that Gypsy was mentally affected by the abuse, she seems to be very smart and she is much more aware of the world than even her mother realized. When it comes to Nick, his mother said that he was diagnosed with Autism and Asperger’s. Nick himself mentioned that he has multiple personalities, and as an audience, we were introduced to Victor, his darker side (the side that murdered Dee Dee).

Something I questioned while watching the show was the relationship between Dee Dee and her own mother. In the flashbacks, we would see Dee Dee taking care of Gypsy, and then Dee Dee’s mother would interfere, telling her that she isn’t doing something right. Understandably, Dee Dee would get frustrated with her mother. She felt like she could handle it on her own. The relationship was obviously strained, but I was curious to know if this was what their relationship was really like in real life. I did not hear much about this in the documentary or other interviews I watched.

I also questioned the relationship between Gypsy and her father. In the show, it seemed that Gypsy was not very close to her father. When he came to visit her in prison, they almost seemed like strangers. It seemed as if she didn’t want to see him. In the documentary, Gypsy gave her father a hug, and she cried in his arms. They seemed to be a bit closer than what was portrayed in the show. I don’t think that Gypsy got to see her father very much, if at all once they moved out of Louisiana. (Also, can we talk about how much the actor who played Gypsy’s father looked like her real life father? That blew my mind!)

Of course, children are going to rely on and trust the adults in their lives, specifically their parents. This story shows what happens when the one person you think you should trust the most, does the unthinkable to you.

Though the story is a bit dark, I really enjoyed this show. The actors were phenomenal and as a viewer, I could see the amount of work that was put into the research behind the real life story.

I hope you enjoyed reading my thoughts about this show! Let me know what you thought of “The Act” in a comment below. Thank you so much for reading (and send some Netflix/Hulu recommendations my way)!

Spring 2020 Playlist

I cannot go one day without listening to music. I listen to music when I’m driving, when I’m working out, and even when I am just sitting around with friends. Today, I am sharing some of the songs that I have been listening on repeat all season long! As I’ve mentioned in other playlist posts, my music taste is all over the place, but pop is my favorite! Let me know what songs are on your spring 2020 playlist in a comment below!

  • Feelings – Lauv
  • Lie To Me – 5 SOS ft. Julia Michaels
  • To Die For – Sam Smith
  • About Love – MARINA
  • Forever – Lewis Capaldi
  • I.F.L.Y – Bazzi
  • Vulnerable, People You Know, Feel Me – Selena Gomez (I am obsessed with her new album “Rare”)
  • In My Bed – Rotimi ft. Wale
  • Glitter – BENEE
  • Emotionally Scarred – Lil Baby
  • Genetics – Meghan Trainor ft. The Pussycat Dolls
  • Blood, Sweat & Tears – Ava Max
  • Higher – Ally Brooke and Matoma
  • she’s all yours – Loote
  • Safe – Daya
  • In Your Eyes, Save Your Tears, Blinding Lights – The Weeknd (His new album “After Hours” is so good!)
  • Traphouse – Tory Lanez ft. Nyce
  • Keep It From You – GLADES
  • Break My Heart – Dua Lipa
  • Favorite Dream – The Careful Ones
  • Kings & Queens – Ava Max
  • Worry About Me – Ellie Goulding ft. blackbear
  • Train Wreck – James Arthur
  • Kissing Other People – Lennon Stella
  • Cruel Intentions – Delacey ft. G-Eazy
  • Creep On Me – GASHI ft. French Montana and DJ Snake
  • Underwater – Cody Simpson
  • Eyes Off You – PRETTYMUCH
  • COULD HAVE BEEN YOU – Jake Miller
  • Almost In Love – Olivia O’Brien
  • Be A Light – Thomas Rhett (ft. Keith Urban, Chris Tomlin, Hillary Scott, and Reba McEntire
  • Salt – Ava Max
  • YOSEMITE – Travis Scott
  • All For You – Wilkinson ft. Karen Harding
  • More Than OK – R3HAB and Clara Mae and Frank Walker
  • Hurt – Sasha Sloan
  • Something New – Wiz Khalifa ft. Ty Dolla $ign
  • This Town – Kygo ft. Sasha Sloan
  • Worst Behavior – SACHI ft. Sam DeRosa
  • Thinking ‘Bout You – Dustin Lynch ft. Lauren Alaina
  • Drive – DJ Fresh
  • To Each His Own – Talos
  • Love Riddim – Remix – Rotimi ft. Akon
  • Go To Sleep – Bearson  ft. Kailee Morgue
  • Bad – Lennon Stella
  • Shedontknowbutsheknows – Tove Lo
  • Safe With You – Delaney Jane
  • I’m Ready – Sam Smith with Demi Lovato
  • HIT ME up – Stefflon Don
  • Don’t Get Me Started – Pia Mia, Gunna, Carnage
  • Ride with Me – Pink Sweat$
  • Still Learning – Halsey
  • Fallen so Young – Declan J Donovan
  • Don’t Even Know You Anymore – Netsky ft. Bazzi and Lil Wayne
  • Sunrise In The East – Becky Hill
  • Slow Burn – Kacey Musgraves
  • Bitter Love – Pia Mia
  • Like It Is – Kygo, Zara Larsson, Tyga
  • Think About Us – Little Mix
  • Back to Life – Hailee Steinfeld
  • To Hell and Back – Maren Morris
  • Be Kind – Marshmello, Halsey
  • Stuck with U – Ariana Grande and Justin Bieber

You: Season 2 Recap + Review

Alright, I am going to be honest; this show is not my favorite, but it is definitely entertaining. In December of 2019, season 2 of “You” came out and everyone started talking about it. I had never heard of this show until this year, so once I saw it all over the internet, I was interested to see what all the hype was about. Basically, what I gathered from all of the memes was that Joe is a creepy stalker who is willing to harm anyone who hurts the people he loves. I know I’m a little late to the game, since this show actually came out in 2018, but I decided to start watching it anyway! This show is based on a book with the same title, written by Caroline Kepnes. I had not heard of this book previously, but it came out in 2014.

If you have not watched seasons 1 and 2 of “You”, I would recommend watching it before reading this post.  There are spoilers ahead!

This season takes place in sunny LA. Joe felt that he needed a “fresh start” after everything that happened in New York. Although he is running, he can’t seem to get away from his past. It continues to haunt him throughout the season. We come to find that he stole the identity of a man named Will, who he kept locked in “the cage” for part of the season. (I am going to continue to refer to him as Joe. Also I am going to refer to that thing as “the cage” because I am not really sure what it is).

At the end of season 1, Joe sees a woman walking through the bookstore only to find Candace standing right in front of him. I had assumed that he killed Candace, but then she started to pop up and I believe Joe was only imagining it. Then, we get to season 2 and find out that she is in fact alive, and she’s back to warn the Quinns. We were able to see that Joe did try to hurt Candace and when he thought that she had died, he buried her. Seeing Joe’s face when he saw that Candace was actually alive was priceless.

Joe gets a job at a store called Anavrin. He quickly spots a woman and one thing that ALWAYS gets me laughing is when we hear Joe say, “Hello, you”. While his narration is necessary, I also find it a bit annoying at times as well. He and Love immediately hit it off with their clear understanding of one another’s use of sarcasm.

I felt that this season, at least at first, just seemed like a complete repeat of season 1. It also seemed like each character from season 1 was simply replaced but the plot stayed the same. Beck replaced with Love, Paco with Ellie, Karen with Delilah, and so on. In my opinion, this season was not as entertaining until I got to episode 7. Once the characters started to figure Joe out, that is when it got interesting to me.

This season, Joe really seemed to want to do better and be a better person than he had been in the past. This was almost impossible, however, he did let Will go after locking him up, and he also planned on letting Delilah go. He did not harm as many people as last season either, which if I am honest, I think is what made this season a bit boring to me.

The way the audience feels about Joe is contradicting in that we are both rooting against and rooting for him at the same time. I found myself going back and forth a couple times during the season. Going back to season 1, Joe killed 4 people. In this season, he actually only killed 1 and it was (kind of) by mistake. Although I obviously know that he is crazy and unstable, there were moments where we would see a kind and caring man, rather than a psychotic serial killer. For example, the way that Joe cared about both Paco and Ellie was sweet, but this barely mattered when the crimes he was committing were atrocious. I also had to wonder if Paco reminded Joe of his younger self. I think that maybe he wanted to look after kids who seemed to be on a difficult path like himself at their age.

Throughout this season, we were able to see many flashbacks from Joe’s childhood whereas in season 1, I believe there were only a couple. This gave the audience some more insight to allow us to understand why Joe turned out the way he did. While it wasn’t a surprise, it was still upsetting to see his home life as a child. His mother was constantly in abusive relationships and she would always put Joe second. She would leave Joe without much care in the world, and this was heart breaking to see. Joe did not have someone to look up to, and he wasn’t loved the way a child should be loved. Joe was introduced to violence at an early age by watching his mother in these awful relationships, so it isn’t exactly surprising that Joe uses violence to solve his problems later in life. We ended up seeing that Joe, at 9 years old, shot his mother’s boyfriend. This led to Joe being sent to a group home for boys.

When Love explained her past marriage to Joe, and she mentioned that her husband got sick, my family and I actually thought that Love may have killed him. Something about her seemed off to us, and we ended up (almost) being right. While Love did not murder her husband, she did actually murder the family Au Pair for sexually abusing her brother, Forty. Love made it seem as if it was Forty who killed her (this flashback looked like a low budget horror film). Due to the family’s wealth they were able to get away with it, making it look like a suicide.

Love and her brother Forty had a unique relationship. They were very close, however the relationship was strained due to Forty’s drug addiction. Love was always the one looking out for him and taking care of him when he was struggling. The Quinn family was strange, to say the least. The parents were wealthy and they did not exactly have the best relationship with their kids, particularly with Love.

Candace (or Amy Adam) started dating Forty, who was unaware of Candace and Joe’s past relationship. It was clear she wanted him to get caught and pay for what he had done. Candace was able to warn Love about Joe and she told her everything from the fact that he tried to murder her, up to him killing Beck. This caused Love and Joe to break up, and they both “moved on”; Love with Milo and Joe with Delilah. The break up did not last long, and Love eventually forgave Joe for lying about his identity. I think that she didn’t want to believe that he murdered anyone. It was around this time that I realized that Love was not exactly sane either.

One night, Joe follows Ellie to Henderson’s house. While, again, his protecting of her is sweet in some ways, it is also creepy. He is concerned for her though, because he knows that Henderson was a child predator. Joe snuck into the house and watched as Henderson put something in Ellie’s drink. Joe threw something across the room to distract Henderson, and he was able to put a stronger dose of the same drug in Henderson’s drink. When Henderson wakes, Joe is somewhat interrogating him and trying to get him to admit that he has sexually assaulted young girls. Henderson eventually admits to this crime, but he tries to excuse the behavior by explaining that he was sexually abused by his stepfather when he was a kid. Henderson is able to escape and as he is running up the stairs, Joe tackles him. As Henderson falls down the stairs, he hits his head and dies.

Fincher, the police officer, calls Delilah when he realizes that Joe had murdered Henderson. He tries to warn her to stay away, but she doesn’t quite believe him. She ends up sneaking around Joe’s apartment to see if she can find anything suspicious, and she finds the keys to Joe’s storage unit. When Delilah goes to the storage unit where the cage is, I knew Joe was going to find her. After calling Fincher, Joe walks in to find Delilah in a panic. We then see Delilah wake up locked in the cage with a bandage on her forehead.

Joe asks Delilah to trust him, and he tells her that he is going to let her out. We see Joe buying a plane ticket so that he can escape before he lets Delilah out. Once the timer is up, the handcuffs will release Delilah and she can leave. Joe’s escape plan is almost ruined when Forty brings him to a hotel and keeps him there so they can work on the script for the movie that Forty wants to produce. The movie is based on the book that Beck wrote in season 1.

Forty and Joe end up at a bar, where Forty secretly put LSD in Joe’s drink. With both of them now on drugs, the rest of the night turns into a total blur. After Joe stops by Anavrin that night, he gets back to the hotel and heads to the bathroom. As he’s washing his hands, he looks down and sees blood all over them. He panics and wonders where else he went that night. He then speaks to Forty who also seems to be having an emotional breakdown. He walks over to him with a piece of glass in his hand, obviously intending on hurting him. Then, Forty talks about his guilt over killing the family Au Pair.

When Joe wakes up in the morning, he realizes that the timer on Delilah’s handcuffs is running out. He rushes back to the cage only to find Delilah lying in a pool of her own blood. When this happened, my family and I all tried to make a guess as to who killed Delilah. I guessed that it was Joe, which I know seems like it was the obvious first choice, but I’ll get to that in a minute. Other guesses included Milo and Forty. Joe goes around asking everyone where he went last night. He was worried about the fact that he had blood on his hands, and that he was out for around 3 hours before heading back to the hotel. Later, Ellie begins panicking when she realizes that Delilah may be missing.

Candace comes back and sneaks up on Joe to lock him in the cage. Candace texts Love to come to the storage unit and as they wait, Joe begins to think that this is what he deserves (which, he definitely does). Love shows up and is visibly upset, but she doesn’t believe that Joe killed Delilah. Although Joe doesn’t remember doing it, he admits that he murdered her. Love walks out only for Candace to follow her. Joe takes the spare key that he keeps hidden in the cage and he throws it so that he can’t get out. We then see that Love kills Candace, which actually surprised me.

When Joe finds that Love killed Candace and Delilah, Joe seemed shocked. It was clear that he didn’t really want to be with her anymore. Love tells Joe her plan to get Ellie in for questioning about Henderson’s murder. She would have the family lawyer to back Ellie up, and they would try to make it look as if Delilah’s murder was actually a suicide. Love lets Joe out only for him to begin to strangle her. Love quickly admits that she’s pregnant and Joe lets go. This really did surprise me, and at first I thought maybe she was only saying that so he wouldn’t hurt her. There are also some theories that the baby is not Joe’s which could possibly be true.

As the end of the last episode approaches, Love and Joe attend a friend’s wedding, where Joe starts to believe that he and Love are actually soul mates. He convinces himself that he loves her and that they should be together. He later meets up with Ellie and tells her that she should move away and he will send money for her.

After Forty comes back from speaking to Doctor Nicky, he is convinced that Joe is a murderer. He finds Love and tells her that she needs to stay away from him, but of course, she already knows the truth. As Forty holds a gun up to Joe’s head, Fincher rushes in and shoots Forty.

Some time has passed and now we see Joe and Love appear to be living a normal life. They bought a house in the LA suburbs, and Joe seems to be looking forward to meeting his daughter. All of a sudden, while he is sitting in his backyard, he hears a woman laughing. He takes a peek through the fence and sees a woman sitting in the sun with a stack of books next to her. Without even seeing her face, he is already trying to find a way to get close to her.

The end of this season was very different from the end of season 1. It almost looks like a happy ending. Although I knew a season 3 had been confirmed, I was still not expecting Joe to find a new “you”.  So, I guess in season 3, Joe and Love are going to have a daughter and Joe is going to be sneaking around with his neighbor. I have no idea what the rest of the plot will be like, but I am going to be watching season 3 when it comes out!

Thank you for reading! Let me know if you enjoyed this season, and if you have any Netflix recommendations since we’re all stuck at home! leave me a comment below!

Winter 2019-2020 Playlist

Hey everyone! Today I am sharing my winter playlist! These are some songs that I have been loving lately. Some of them are a little older while some are more recent. As usual, most of it is pop music, but my music taste is really all over the place! Let me know in a comment below what some of your current favorite songs are!

  • Teeth – 5 Seconds of Summer
  • Say So – Doja Cat
  • Should’ve Said It, My Oh My, This Love, Used To This – Camila Cabello (Basically, I love her whole album “Romance”)
  • My Way – Ava Max
  • Over – Fox Sinclair
  • Juicy – Doja Cat
  • Good Thing – Zedd & Kehlani
  • Lovely – Billie Eilish
  • Yummy – Justin Bieber
  • Anywhere – Rita Ora
  • No Idea – Don Toliver
  • Wrong Direction – Hailee Steinfeld
  • Somebody Like That – Tenille Arts
  • Sober – Bad Wolves
  • Watermelon Sugar, Golden, Adore you – Harry Styles (I have been loving his new album “Fine Line”)
  • The Good Ones – Gabby Barrett
  • Better Off This Way – Bad Wolves
  • We Made It – Louis Tomlinson
  • Badass Woman – Meghan Trainor
  • Why – Bazzi
  • What Could’ve Been – Gone West
  • Everything I Wanted –  Billie Eilish
  • In My Bed – Sabrina Carpenter
  • Wave – Meghan Trainor ft. Mike Sabath
  • me & ur ghost – blackbear
  • Paris – Sabrina Carpenter
  • when the party’s over – Billie Eilish
  • Somebody Else – The 1975
  • All For You – Wilkinson & Karen Harding
  • South of the Border – Ed Sheeran feat. Camila Cabello
  • Nice to Meet Ya – Meghan Trainor ft. Nicki Manaj
  • Before You Go – Lewis Capaldi (I think that this might be my favorite song at the moment. His voice is beautiful and I really enjoy his music)
  • All I Want – Olivia Rodrigo
  • Knees – Bebe Rhexa
  • 10,000 Hours – Dan + Shay, Justin Bieber
  • There You Are – ZAYN
  • I Warned Myself – Charlie Puth
  • July – Noah Cyrus
  • Dance Monkey – Tones and I
  • Grace – Lewis Capaldi
  • I Hope You’re Happy Now – Carly Pearce, Lee Brice
  • Everybody Loves You – Charlotte Lawrence
  • How Do You Sleep? – Sam Smith

The Bachelor S24E1 Recap + Predictions

If you have not watched episode 1 of The Bachelor (Peter’s season), go watch and then come back to read! I will be mentioning some spoilers ahead!

Who else is SO happy that The Bachelor is back?! I know many people dislike reality TV, and I understand, but this is one addictive show! I also know that a lot of it is dramatized and many of the relationships don’t end up working out, but it is still fun to watch! If you have not watched The Bachelor/Bachelorette, let me explain what the show is involves: first, there is ALWAYS a villain (sometimes there ends up being more than one). On at least one date, expect fireworks. On another date, expect a country music singer/band to appear. There may be times where both of these things occur on one date. Expect a ton of drama, tears, and wine, and lastly, understand that every season is just as dramatic as the last (even though Chris Harrison will try to convince you otherwise).

To be honest, Hannah’s season was not my favorite. I was hoping that the next bachelor would either be Peter or Mike. I think it would have been great for Mike to be the bachelor because I thought that he was charming and seemed to have the right intentions for being on the show. It was clear that he wanted to find love, but I wasn’t too disappointed that Peter was asked. I do think that the whole Bachelor franchise could try to diversify their casts a bit more. It’s crazy that just a couple of years ago we had the first black bachelorette!  The show has been around since 2002/2003 so it is definitely past due!

Let’s talk about this season! Since Peter is a pilot, tons of puns were being thrown around on night one and this was no surprise. I’m sure we are going to hear many more pilot jokes as well as more talk of the “windmill situation”.  I really like Peter because I feel like he is such a sweet and genuine guy.  I love that he has a close relationship with his family as well.

On night one, Peter met 30 women. A couple of the women who I believe stood out to Peter the most were Hannah Ann, Kelley, and Madison. I also think that these three are going to make it really far. He may even pick one of them. Throughout the first night, as expected, some of the women weren’t afraid to interrupt another woman’s time with Peter. This of course caused drama between a few of the girls, specifically Hannah Ann and Shiann. There was a pretty awkward conversation between them after Hannah Ann spoke to Peter three times. There was also some tension when it came to Kelley. I think the other girls felt a bit threatened when they found out that Peter had met Kelley before. Many of the women were incredibly bold and went in for a kiss on the first night! Hannah Ann ended up getting the first impression rose, which I definitely didn’t like but I saw it coming. At the end of the night, Victoria F. was incredibly worried about being sent home because she spent her time reminding Peter what she said when she walked out of the limo…yikes!

The next day started with a group date. The women went to learn some terms related to flying, and then they all tried out the gyroscope and completed an obstacle course. The prize? A mini date with Peter flying over the sunset. Toward the end, it was between Shiann and Kelley. Kelley ended up cheating and riding her bike straight through the course while Shainn was staying on track. Peter took Kelley on the plane ride, and the other girls were upset that Kelley cheated. Another awkward conversation came from this as well.

Madison got the first date and this was a pretty personal first date. She got to go to Peter’s house to watch his parents renew their vows. Any time a contestant meets the person’s family very quickly, I always try to put myself in their shoes. I can’t imagine meeting someone’s parents on a first date. I would feel incredibly nervous. Madison handled the situation well, and she seemed to get along with his mother. Toward the end of their date, she told Peter that she feels like she’s known him forever. They ended the date by SURPRISE, slow dancing to some live country music. I think that Madison is going to go far this season, but I don’t think she’ll be the one Peter chooses.

And now for some drama. After Peter met all of the women, one last person stepped out of the limo and that was Hannah Brown. I think it was most likely the producers who wanted her to come back to add some drama to the show, but I guess she was ok with making an appearance. She gave Peter back his wings that he gave her when they first met, and she wished him luck. We thought that would be the last of her, but then on the second group date, she came back.

This group date started in a very uncomfortable way for the girls and for Peter. Hannah was on stage and she shared a bit about her time in the windmill with Peter. To say that the other girls looked uncomfortable is an understatement. No one wanted to hear it. When we began to question where this date was going, Hannah explained that Peter and the girls were going to share a personal intimate story with a live audience. The episode ended before we got to hear any of these stories, but Hannah and Peter did have a private talk before it was over.

Hannah and Peter talked about their past relationship and the regrets that they had. Peter asked Hannah what she would say if he asked her to come back to the show, and although she hadn’t really given a clear answer, I do not believe she would come back. It seems that many people think Peter is going to end up with Hannah B., but I am not so sure. I think he will possibly pick one of women I mentioned earlier! I think that Peter needs to move on. It was obvious that he was not her first choice, and even though I understand that it takes time for that love to disappear, he deserves to be happy and to be with someone new.

I love going on Twitter to see what people are saying when I watch an episode. Whenever the show is on, it is always trending! I love when something awkward or crazy happens because everyone on Twitter goes wild posting hilarious gifs and tweets about it.

I plan on sharing a few recaps throughout the season. I won’t share one every single week because I feel like it would be too much, plus I have other exciting posts to share with you all! In these posts, I will go over the highlights and the biggest talking points! If you are a fan of The Bachelor/Bachelorette, leave me a comment below and tell me what you thought of episode 1. Also, tell me your predictions! Thank you for reading!

Christmas Music and Movie Favorites

One thing that can always get me in the holiday spirit is Christmas music! As soon as Thanksgiving is over (and even sometimes before), I’m blasting all of the Christmas music and watching some of my favorite Christmas movies! Today, I wanted to share some of my favorite holiday movies and music with you all!

First, Let’s talk movies! When I was a kid, I always looked forward to watching Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer, Frosty the Snowman, and How The Grinch Stole Christmas! Even today I would sit down and watch those movies! I also loved a movie called Olive, the Other Reindeer and The Tangerine Bear. I haven’t seen these two in forever but I have memories of watching them all the time.

Some of my Christmas movie favorites are Elf, Home Alone (I like the second one the most), and Jingle All the Way. One of my all time favorite Christmas movies is The Holiday. There’s just something about this movie that gets me every time, and I have loved it since the first time I saw it. If you haven’t watched this movie, GO WATCH IT! It is so sweet and a perfect mix of comedy and romance.

Ever since Glee, I have been following Lea Michele’s career and this year she was in a new movie called Same Time Next Christmas. I just watched it the other night with my family and I thought it was a cute Christmas movie. Speaking of Lea Michele, her new album called Christmas in The City came out last month and I’ve been listening to it constantly! Her voice is so beautiful and some of my favorite songs on the album are I’ll Be Home For Christmas, White Christmas, Angels We Have Heard On High, and Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas. If you haven’t heard her album, I recommend listening to it because it is perfect.

As some of you may know if you read my recent posts in the “Entertainment to Share” section of my blog, I love the Jonas Brothers! They recently came out with a new song called Like It’s Christmas so this one has been on repeat lately as well!

When I was little, my dad was always playing music. Around Christmas time, he would play these two albums that we continued to play every single year, and they have always reminded me of Christmas time and my family. First, he would play Amy Grant’s album A Christmas To Remember. Amy Grant reminds me of my childhood, and I feel like listening to these songs always brings me back to the best times. If we didn’t play this album around Christmas it would feel so strange. Some of my favorite songs from this album are A Christmas To Remember, Jingle Bell Rock, Christmas Lullaby, and Christmas Can’t Be Very Far Away.

The other album that my dad always plays is called Rockin’ Christmas and I have vivid memories of me, my dad, and my brother playing these songs as we decorated the Christmas tree and danced around. This album included songs from different artists, but my favorites were always Run Rudolph Run, Zat You Santa Claus, and Noel.

There are also those classic Christmas songs that everyone knows. Mariah Carey’s All I Want For Christmas Is You has always been a favorite, and basically anything by Nat King Cole (especially The Christmas Song). I always say it, but Michael Buble’s voice IS Christmas. Every time I hear him sing, it just reminds me of the holidays. I love listening to his version of It’s Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas and I also love Grown Up Christmas List.

I remember when me and my siblings were little, on Christmas Eve, my dad would read us ‘Twas The Night Before Christmas before we went to bed. Once he was finished reading, we were all still wide awake of course. We were always too excited to fall asleep. Every year, my mom would make us a cup of raw oats and glitter and we would go outside to our front yard and throw it around so that “Santa’s reindeer would see it and make sure to stop by”. One year, my brother and I swore we heard something on the roof. As we’ve gotten older, we do not take part in these little traditions anymore, but it makes me smile when I think back, and I hope to continue them with my own children one day.

Thank you so much for reading! Leave me a comment below and tell me what some of your favorite Christmas movies and songs are!

Fall 2019 Playlist

Hey everyone! Today I just wanted to share my fall playlist with you! Some of these songs are more recent, and others are a little older, but these are the songs that I have been listening to on repeat lately! My music taste is kind of all over the place, but as you will be able to tell, pop music is my favorite. This will be my last fall related post, so after this you should expect quite a few holiday themed posts which I am so excited to share! Let me know what’s on your fall playlist in a comment below!

. Shameless – Camila Cabello

. Liar – Camila Cabello

. G Walk – Lil Mosey, Chris Brown

. Don’t Call Me Angel – Ariana Grande, Miley Cyrus, Lana Del Ray

. If You Need Me – Julia Michaels

. Ransom – Lil Tecca

. Cry For Me – Camila Cabello

. Zero – Chris Brown

. Bad Liar – Imagine Dragons

. Space – Maren Morris

. Easy – Camila Cabello (OK, I just love anything that she does. So obsessed with her!)

. Lights Up – Harry Styles

. Freaking Me Out – Ava Max

. Visions – Dirty Heads

. Playing To Win – Fox Sinclair

. Lose You To Love Me – Selena Gomez

. Wish You Well – Sigala, Becky Hill

. Roxanne – Arizona Zervas

. Look At Her Now – Selena Gomez

. CPR – Summer Walker

. Body, Tonight, Come Thru – Summer Walker (basically her whole album “Over It”)

. Hesitate – Jonas Brothers

. Circles – Post Malone

. Graveyard – Halsey

. Noticed – Lil Mosey

. Every Single Time – Jonas Brothers

. What A Time – Julia Micheals feat. Niall Horan

. I Love You – Billie Eilish

. The Principal, Nurse’s Office, Strawberry Shortcake – Melanie Martinez (her new album K-12 is amazing and so creative! If you haven’t heard it, go check it out. There’s a message in every song).

. Say My Name- David Guetta

. Don’t Start Now – Dua Lipa

. Lovely – Billie Eilish

. Hollywood’s Bleeding – Post Malone